I'm still waiting for the adjust ment to begin, and 6 weeks later I'm still hurting. It would help if I got to bed before 1:30 am and stopped trying to survive on 4 hours of sleep 5 nights a week, but what can I say, I'm addicted to the Golden Girls.

Ok, I HATE promising on the site, b/c I flake on everything, but while I work hard 6 days a week, my 1 day off, I'm still moving into my room, building my closet and trying to organize my stuff. Yesterday, I got an entire side of my room done to the point that I'm not annoyed and irritated when I come home.

My project for next Sunday is to shift over a bit, clear out the storage under my bed and get the papers off the floor. Since that's all I'm working on, I'll devote a few hours to update this blog for reals. As an ex\tra incentive, before I start to work on the room, I'll do this as soon as I wake up.

Deal?

Deal!

:)

I ended up starting that gig one week in, so I never had much of a vacay and then when I knew for sure I was hired, I changed my schedule w/job #3 except they didn't and I ended up having to take off last week from the new job and actually started there this week.

Now, if that is as clear as mud, let's proceed ;)

This week I reprinted my budget, I need to revise it and I need to sort out what bills come from which checking acct. Right now the hours @ job #3, in my best guess, will be about 8-10 hours a week. I kept that job b/c it's on my way home both fri and sat, no extra driving, so it'll either pay for gas and it'll pay for clothes I already get @ a discount and I'll continue to sock away 10%. Anything extra will go for food and then bills.

Main job pays main bills, rent, utilites, food, car, student loans etc. Job #3 goes to pay off credit cards till they are paid in full, then it goes toward student loans and such.

So that's my not so brief update. I really suck @ promising to updated in xx days then vanishing for xx weeks, so I'll post when I post...how 'bout that :)

Stupid target will only let me schedule about 3 payments in advance and now that I've gotten the new balance lowered, I have a hard time paying extra on the card. So I wiped out all pending payments and set up bill pay via my CU.

Then I found out last month my biggest student loan payment dropped about $25. But I don't want to stop paying what I'm used to, instead I'll continue to send the original payment but the extra will be via check so I can apply it directly to the princpal, so I needed a reminder email for that too.

Other than that, things are cranking along. I'm really enjoying my time off doing NOTHING!!! Tomorrow I go back into job#3 to update my schedule and then I'm not back there till Labor Day, if they schedule me, I'm BIG on working federal holidays, time and 1/2 and all that good stuff.

When I went to lunch I realized how normal I felt and wondered why it took 3 days to sink in. I think it's cuz, my schedule tends to be 1 day on, 2 days off, 2 days on, etc etc. So it had to be something unusual, like 3 days in a row and realizing I won't be back in that building for 2 whole weeks to grasp that I'm really really off.

Once I feel up to it, I will update my progress for month 8, does it even matter where I am @ 6 months in? I was supposed to do that too. I think I avoided it b/c in a way I just want to see the year end numbers and not feel pressured, I dunno, maybe I'll update that as well.

Next week I have orientation, I'm not sure when my actual start date will be, I'm still in a bit of limbo, but even that I'm not rushing. Instead I'm planning a day trip out of town, we were going to do a 2 night thing but need more time to research so put that off till mid October, so I have the next 2 weekends free. This weekend will be to catch up on personal stuff which will leave next weekend to go away for the day.

Then I'll be back to juggling 3 gigs...joy!

It's been a LOOOONG time coming, searching, finding, applying, interviewing but especially waiting. That was the hardest. I was so emotionally mentally drained last week, I ended up taking 2 weeks off from job #3 just to cool my heals and decompress.

I officially recieved the offer today and am in the process of doing the preliminary stuff for a few more days till my official start date. I'm just so very tired right now. I was going to trim back my hours on job #2 (the retail gig) for a few months anyway, so for the immediate future, I'll work there fri & sat nights. the new gig will be mon - thur nights and I'll actually have Sunday off.

The workaholic in me is trying hard to resist scheduling 4-5 hours of work time and instead will use that day to rest, get my house in order and do personal things.

I may also go away either this weekend or next, just to get out of town and if I don't go now, my next chance won't be till mid October, but I'll play that by ear.

Right now I'm just going to catch up on some movies and try real hard to get the super big grin off of my face :D

Here is where I was 6/8/08:

Here is where I am as of 7/8/08:

1. William & Fudge. Last month $2,426.81. Now I owe $2,276.81.

2. Direct Student Loan. Last month $7,336.31. Now I owe $7,250.40.

3. Target Visa (+ Federal Taxes). Last month I owed $8,445.19. Now I owe $7,764.96.

4. Sallie Mae. Last month $23,192.30. Now I owe $23,061.73.

Grand totals: Last month I was $41,400.61 in debt. Now I am $40,353.90 in debt.

In the last 30 days I have paid down $1046.71.

Something is terribly off in my figures this month and honesly, I'm too tired to try to figure it out or even care @ this point. It's been a LOOOOONG month. Not sure if it's purely the dog days of summer getting to me, the fact that I'm fast losing interest in Job#2, I'm feeling stuck, @ a stalemate, unmotivated, etc, but I'm just over it right now.

I didn't add this into the overall picture, though it counts. I transferred $950 from Target to a 1.99% promo w/my Wamu Visa. That will be paid off before the rate resets in February by paying $118.75/mo for the next 6 months. The interest is a few bucks, I'll get more specific about this in another post, but after crunching the #'s, I'll save about $100-150 in interest charges w/that move.

Why the numbers just DON'T freaking add up, if I add back in the $880 that is currently owed on that card, which remember originally comes from Target, I end up being in MORE debt this month than last month.

I'm hoping by August 8th, thing's will fall back into place, I'll see the change in monthly finance charges for Target, but most importantly, I'll get my motivation mojo back :\

If I do that and knock the balance down by $1265.00 this month, I did the number crunching and the finance charges will dip from $145/mo to about $124/mo. Not a huge drop, while I'll have to pay $145/mo from July to Jan to get the card paid off in time.

So my minimum payment on Target my drop by $100 and I'll know pay 1.99% on 1k of debt vs. 19.24 for 7 months. Even the time it'll take to do the math doesn't feel to be worth it so for now, I think I'll pass.

I have till 7/30 to use the checks.

Tackling the remaining topics I left dangling

After getting up the nerve to see why my cc balance was moving so slow, I got up even more nerve to look @ my spending. Having reached a key point in the year, the first quarter, I had 4 full months of statements to tally. It was painful, it was shameful and more than the final amount of debt I owed, 2 months since doing it, I can say it has been the most significant thing to have turned me around for the better.

See, I always had a vague idea of what I was spending but didn't realize how obscenely above my means I was living. The allure of plastic kept me in denial and in the dark. I mean I could be in the negative dollar wise, but so long as my card had room, still manage to charge up a couple hundred dollars in clothes and shoes.

Did I mention shame?

I did it all in an Excel spreadsheet making a category for each expense. Then I made a new sheet w/my income from job #1 only and all the expenses. I was in the red and bleeding badly. I trimmed all the "non essentials" still in the red. How the hell was I doing this? Two words, credit cards. I was using the paid off ones and paying them in full, leaving myself w/less overall money.

At that point, I took out every single credit card out of my wallet and put them in a drawer. As of this today, I only walk w/2 pieces of plastic. My debit card and my rewards card for gasoline purchases only.

I kept trimming and trimming and if I cut out ALL non essentials and budget my food, I could make it. I won't be happy, but I'd make it. The final step was to see how much I net from job #2 on average. While I never wanted to be financially dependent on it, I came to a happy medium.

In my current budget, I have enough to pay the minimums on my debt. That allowed me to shift Target card payment to job#2 and use the "extra" $265 to pay off the smaller debts. Whatever extra I net from job# will also go towards it and this serves 2 purposes.

It gives me a bit of breathing room in my monthly budget, yet if something happens to my hours @ job#2, the main job will still cover me and that'll just be a "lean month". When hours are plentiful, I'll pay off the smaller debts that much sooner and have even more money to pay down the Target card.

Which brings me to...

2. Lean months are coming

Oh how I kvetched when the reality of my situation kicked in. It wasn't fair! How can I live like this? The horror the horror. But as wounded as I felt, I also felt a bit of relief and dare I say, control. For the first time in like ever, I knew, raw #'s knew, what brought in each month and what went out.

It's been a little over 2 months since I decided to take better control. This debt pay down journey has been a long time coming, hard sloughing, and I still have a ways to go to get to where I want to be. I can't say that I'm on a budget or spending plan or whatever. I can't say I'll go bare minimum on money I can control like food. But I can say I have stopped the bleeding by not using cc's only to pay it in full @ months end and I am more aware of what I have allotted to each expense.

The last Excel sheet I created was to trim down my expenses to the most necessary, there is still room to cut, and each month I plug in what I have and the numbers in little box @ the top tell me if I am ok, by staying black, or showing up in red, meaning I am overspending. I have also taken to posting my debt in advance in MS money so even when my online acct says I have a few hundred, I tend to remember the amount MS money projects me to have till I get paid again.

3.Going back to school??

Uh. Yes. I took the plunge and applied and now have to finish my song and dance routine to get in. Long story short, if I go back now, I *may* get a job in my chosen field or internship or something that I can use while in school vs. waiting to pay off all my debt and try to go back later. I am going to do community college route first, to get all major and minor course out of the way for cheaper, then get my BA at the 4 year school.

The biggest part is, I'm paying as I go. Even if it means taking 1 or 2 classes each semester till my finances and employment situation changes, so be it.

4. Taking a step back to see what I have accomplished so far...

I started to write about this b/c I was getting depressed by the enormity of my situation and realized I needed to take a step back to really grasp @ where I am. I was going to do it every quarter, but when I got out the spending pattern and the lean months wrapped around my brain, I started trying to pick up as many extra shifts as possible @ job#2, which explains the times I don't post as much here.

Now it'll be a mid way report and I'll try to pick it up again in 3 months and from then on out, do it quarterly.

This last clifhanger will be addressed @ the end of the month.

- Compound Interest is kicking my ass - Numbers don't lie, finally did a budget and um, yikes! - Lean months are coming - Going back to school?? - Taking a step back to see what I have accomplished so far

Naturally, I have forgotten the major points of said teasers, so this'll be easier than I thought. I'll be able to wrap this all up in one post.

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1. Compound Interest is kicking my ass

I didn't full grasp the evils of compound interest till I mused my Target bill and it's ever so slow downward creep. It seemed like I was paying interest on interest. Feeling frustrated and like I busted a credit card doing something sue-worthy, I opened up calculator and tried to crunch the numbers I never touch. The ones behind the scene. What I found out, floored me.

It was actually $9,205.81.

Curious as to why I was so off base, I looked @ the bottom of the statement. In the purchases box (mind you I don't use the card) I saw a "purchase" charge for $145.00. It was labeled finance charges. I felt sick. For that amount of loot, I could've walked into Target and gotten myself $145 worth of stuff.

Taking a deep breath, I did some googling. That was the day I learned about compound interest.

I opened up my 4/5/08 statement. Previous Balance, $9205.81. Paid $265. Finance Charges $153.03.

It felt like for every two steps forward ($265 payment) , I was talking a step back ($265 -$153 finance = $112 actually paid).

Now I can't get too upset w/myself. The way I structured my debt pay off, to go from smallest to largest was for a valid reason. I need the mental hooray that comes w/each debt I knock out.

I know myself, had I attempted to pay this card off first, I'd still be paying it down, granted there'd be a considerably smaller balance maybe in the 3k range, but I'd also have 8 other mini debts nipping @ my heels. Visually, I like focusing on 4 debts, so while I an gripe, I am realistic and used my energy to figure out this money maker worked for Target and it goes a little something like this:

Average daily balance x daily interest = monthly finance charge

Got it?

How do they figure daily interest you say? Easy. see that annual % rate, mine is a tasty 19.99%, you take that and divide the # of days in the year, this case 365.

That gives me 0.054767123287671232876712328767123%, let's say 0.05476% for short, as my daily interest.

Now take the average daily balance, in my case $9,014.65 and multiply it by 0.05476% (be sure to hit the % key) it'll give ya 4.93642234, lets just say 4.94. Which really means $4.94 in daily interest. Finally, we multiply that by the days in the billing cycle, 31 and voila, $153.14 in interest. Just wow.

Learning that tidbit, has made me extra focused on paying off this debt and made me check out the interest on what I have left. Granted my student loan debt is simple interest and it makes more sense to pay the least amount of money possible, I am just @ the point where I'll just consider it a lesson learned and continue paying my debt smallest to largest.

It irks me that in a years time I'll have forked over $1800+ in just finance charges, but @ this point, it's a silly debate to have w/myself.

This was much longer than I intended, so here's another promise ;), I'll pick up the other 4 topics in a few days.

*gulp* here goes nothing...

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A bit more description:
Snacks = things I bought on my break while @ job #2.
Breakfast/Lunch = eating @ the cafe @ job #1
Fast Food = anything from KFC to Krystals to BK and beyond
Restaurant = the Mexican spot I eat @ before clocking into job #2
Groceries = my attempt this week to STOP the spending @ Fast Food joints and save on gas
Savings & TD = while I go back and forth about putting every penny towards debt vs. having a nest egg, since I want to go back to school this fall, I am going to pay as I go, the Savings in this case will go towards taht while TD is the Suze Orman "If you save $100/mo for a year, I'll give you $100" book thingy.

Hrm, let's see if I can turn that Ouch into a WTF? I know how, I'll ADD UP what I spent last week, fun stuff.

$644.34

WTF indeed.

Here is where I was 5/8/08:

Here is where I am as of today:

1. William & Fudge. Last month $2,576.81. Now I owe $2,426.81.

2. Direct Student Loan. Last month $7,425.99. Now I owe $7,336.31.

3. Target Visa (+ Federal Taxes). Last month I owed $8,710.19. Now I owe $8,445.19.

4. Sallie Mae. Last month $23,381.49. Now I owe $23,192.30.

Grand totals: Last month I was $42,094.48 in debt. Now I am $41,400.61 in debt.

In the last 30 days I have paid down $693.87. again, not a heckuva lot of progress. A chunk of April and May monies went to paying off bills in real time vs. putting them on my credit card to worry about later. I think this will be the last month (knock on wood) of bare minimum payments and I am hoping to rebound in July w/an attempt to @ the very least splith my smallest debt in 1/2.

All of the above was charged and have been paid in full and officially leaves me w/the Target card and the capital one card that paid my fed taxes from April. Geez Louise will this viscious cycle ever end? I'm hoping so and have decided to use June 1 as the turning point, both financially and blog(ially) if that even is a word.

Live and learn I s'pose.

As part of that commitment and what'll help me blog here on a daily basis, is I'm going to start posting waht I spend every single day. The biggest benefit to me is it'll help keep my spending check, I'll think twice if I want to confess I just spent blew $60 on ju-ju beans. I promise you I haven't.

The daily posting will start this Saturday on the 7th and I'll back post it to include the 1st thru 6th. Lucky for rme, 100% of my spending is done on my debit card, wait, that's not a good thing to brag about. I just hate carrying cash around. But for this month I'll do my normaly spending pattern and next month, I'll look into withdrawing money to walk around with vs. hitting the card.

Here is where I was 4/8/08:

Here is where I am as of today:

1. William & Fudge. Last month $2,726.81. Now I owe $2,576.81.

2. Direct Student Loan. Last month $7,513.69. Now I owe $7,425.99.

3. Target Visa (+ Federal Taxes). Last month I owed $9,093.84. Now I owe $8,710.19.

4. Sallie Mae. Last month $23,542.20. Now I owe $23,381.49.

Grand totals: Last month I was $42,876.54 in debt. Now I am $42,094.48 in debt.

In the last 30 days I have paid down $782.06, resulting in not much progress. Or so it seems. Let me just say, compound interest is a bitch, more on that later.

In my defense, I can't always have stellar months where I pay off cards in full, it was exentuating circumstances the first few months of the year that helped me pay off the smaller debts, plus I had more motivation. Now I'm tackling the multi thousand dollar debts and compound interest is totally working against me. I also gave up on the third job last month, I had a HUGEEEEE tax bill to pay, I have car tags and insurance due, it was my mom's bday and mothers day, so the extra hundred of dollars that could've went to my debt had more pressing matters to attend to.

So it goes.

A few things I need to do and while I am HORRIBLE @ following up on my blog cilffhangers, I promise to try better.

- Compound Interest is kicking my ass
- Numbers don't lie, finally did a budget and um, yikes!
- Lean months are coming
- Going back to school??
- Taking a step back to see what I have accomplished so far

It'll get better, I now it will.

In the mean time, I made small gains in my overall pay down strategy, but I am in no rush to get a third job. For now I'm just going to stick w/what I have, it's keeping me relatively sane. I also need to get my arse back to school, so that'll be the plan for this summer, get all my papers in order, even if it means taking one class on the weekend till my financial situation improves, so be it.

Here is where I was 3/8/08:

Here is where I am as of today:

1. Capital 1 Gold (+ GA Taxes). Last month $4,873.29. Today it is Paid in FULL!.

2. William & Fudge. Last month $2,876.81. Now I owe $2,726.81.

3. Direct Student Loan. Last month $7,603.81. Now I owe $7,513.69.

4. Target Visa (+ Federal Taxes). Last month I owed $8,940.81. Now I owe $9,093.84.

5. Sallie Mae. Last month $23,734.48. Now I owe $23,542.20.

Grand totals: Last month I was $47,883.20 in debt. Now I am $42,876.54 in debt.

In the last 30 days I have paid down $5,006.66, resulting in me paying off 1 more credit card and consequently, my GA Tax bill!!

Put it like this, when you do not see me updating this blog for weeks on end, I'm offline trying to make money...heh

I'm not sure what's up w/the Target balance of going up, I didn't make any purchases on the card, if anything, I was more likely to have been bleary eyed when I did the update last month. Oh well.

For some reason, I'm not feeling accomplished. Looking @ the numbers on paper, I can see something was done, I can grasp that 5k is nothing to sneeze @, yet I still feel like I'm not getting anywhere. I don't know exactly @ what point will I feel like I'm making progress, maybe when all cc's are paid off? when I have 1 student loan left? I dunno.

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So I quit job #3, it was insane and I'll leave it @ that. No regrets nor any rush to find another job#3. I've just been taking it easy the last 2 weeks, enjoying a few days a week off and as of last week, decided to open up my availability for job# 2 and as much as that place irks me, it's pretty much a no brainer to just show up and get my job done.

Plus for better mental health, I've changed my time to leave @ 9pm Mon - Thurs, Friday nights I'll stay till whenever, plus I don't mind going in on Friday, traffic is off the wall, why not get paid right? On the weekends, I work till 2pm. This week, being my first since the change, I have 25 hours which is pretty good, and I'm off on Saturday.

Does it cut into my overall plan, just a bit, but again, my goal is do pay an extra $500/mo to existing debt an as you can tell from last month, I exceeded that goal by $4,000...hee!!

One more thing that soured my mood a bit, is that I lost out on some ad money last month. The good thing is, I never rely on that money, it's always in addition to what I make @ job #2 so on paper, it's no biggie. I also got a smaller ad, so I didn't completely lose out on much.

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One last note on payments, I made a strategic decision to pay off the capital one gold card before the smaller debt. Reason being, that debt has no interest. Matter of fact, interest is the main reason I cleared out an old acct to pay off that card. @ the start of the year, I was earning 5% interest, and this week it went down to 2.96%. That day, I also happened to open up my cc acct and checked the monthly finance charge.

You know where this is going right?

I'd have been a dope to keep holding onto that $1,500 and earning about $3/mo when that 5k in debt was costing me $65/mo. I totally feel the same way about the Target debt. I cringe when I see how much interest I'm doling out, so the new plan will continue. Pay that off as soon as I can, and pay the minimum on the W&F loan, which if I keep @ the minimum payment of $150/mo, will be paid in full by Sept of next year.

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Yet, I'm still all blah. I think I know what the prob is, while I'm working so very hard to become debt free, I have pending debts that can't be avoided, 2008 Taxes, state and feds (due in April); car registration, car emissions, insurance renewal (all due in May); tires, tune up, hair care (flexible I guess) and a few more things, so guess what kind of catch 22 I'm stuck in?

Either use existing cash to pay the new debt, or pay off the cc and end up putting the new debt back onto the paid in full cc. Ugh. Yea, that's what's been sticking in my craw for the last few days.

It has helped me reevaluate much of what I'm currently doing, I haven't been being super strict w/myself in terms of my finances. I can possibly squeeze more money out of my daily spending to set aside for the upcoming debt. I can pick up extra hours from job#2. If I can avg 25 hours/week for the rest of this month, I can get $700 and use 1/2 of that to take care of the car, still leaving $350 to pay down on debt and I can try to eek out and extra $150 from my main money (job #1), which if I tighten the spending belt, may be doable.

We'll see. Stranger things have happened to me, who knows. Maybe that fairy debtmother will shine her light and give me the 43k I need to make the rest of my debt completely disappear.